welcome to Y_j’s world…anyone can or will live in my world together with me???

070707 & 120707 - issit the time really can dilute my sadness ?

somethings can but this time i really cant make it …

070707 - i released that you are into my world …

120707 - you are disappear from my world …

i’m felt so sorry to you …

i miss you so much …

will you hate me ?

will you forgive me ?

i wont forget you …

i had facing the most knotty stuffs since the dawn of history even though only a few days … you turn up and disappeared so suddenly … i had facing this problems and settle it alone … i had to bear a pain without anyone accompany … i miss you every night … i’m so sorry to you …

”…..从此,白雪公主和白马王子便过着幸福快乐的日子!!”童话里的爱情既是如此的完美,可歌可泣.两个相爱的人不论经过多少的考验,多少艰难困苦,只要他们坚持到最后,幸福快乐的日子便是属于他们…

试问着,在现今的社会里会有哪一段的爱情是可以持之以恒???更不用说什么一起经历,一起吃苦.”不在乎天长地久,只在乎曾经拥有”…相信这必定是属于很多人对爱情的看法或是名言,但对我来说却是自私且懦弱的行为…爱并不是如此!!!但也不能否定每个人都有一套对爱情的看法.

爱是不计较的付出,但并不等与不要回报!!!

爱可以很幸福甜蜜,但也会让人痛苦万分!!!

爱对某些人可有可无,但对某些人却非常重要!!!

爱是如此的短暂,又是如此地遥远!!!

爱是多么的真实,却又是这么的遥不可及!!!

Y J…

sigh!!!im so tired on my new job from the start till now…haiz…lots of things hav to learn from the begining n hav to get wif it the new environment n colleagues…luckily,they treat me very nice…the 1st day when i meet wif my batch i juz knew that im the only one malaysian in the rest of them…orientation coming soon but i havent get ready for it…oh my godness,i havent register for it…-_-”’havent  online take course,havent get ready for my exam,……………..i really feel like to giv up of it but…haiz…i need the support,anyone can giv me support???when im sad i juz realised that no one can by my side n share e sadness wif me…is that im too picky???

suddenly,everything so stranger to me…it is the 1st time in my life…got a lots changing coming soon…need someone be my side to give me a support…nothing can be last forever!!!friends,family,relationship,career,money…especially,everything about relation one…human are so weak…i hate to be a human…if got chance to choose im rather be an animals…at least got no brain to think…

i really dun understand how com got so many ppl dead everyday,every moment but nv c my stupid china manager go to hell…y everytime she juz try to objection?????everyone in company dun like her but no one dare to say no to her…i hate her so much…i nv hate someone so deep like before…this is the 1st one n the 1st time in my life…i cant go hom celebration CNY wif my family oredi…i try to take leave n go hom on march…my supervisor approve n i oso paid for a return tickets oredi…how com suddenly she said cant???i hate to receive any call from office when i off…my supervisor call n told me got roadshow for those few days that i go hom…ask me to cancel it…fuck n shit!!!i said i can do that cos i had paid for tickets oredi…she said that she oso dunno cos manager juz told her…shit!!!!manager manager manager again…wat kind of such stupid manager still alive in this world???i really cant take it oredi…this is not the 1st time that she treat me like that…everyone got angpao from her when CNY but i dun hav…i nv care it…but she sms to my one of colleague said that she not giv everyone angpao one…even uncle auntie oso got angpao from her…that mean she try to ask me to fuck off myself issit???besides that,all of us share to bought a preset for her before CNY…she got sms to everyone n said thank you to them except me…wat kind of such person…shit!!!!shall i continue stay in this company o….sian lar…………..

dad,all the way u r my idol in my mind u know???but how come u dun care us???is that u dun wan us oredi???everyone asked me"amanda,y u dun wan go home n celebration the CNY wif ur family???"what can i ans to them???is that i tell them that i dun wan go home cos i wan to save the money to supply my family???beside that,my dad oso not at home…wat for i go home???dad,i dun mind supply this family for u…i just wan u can go home asap n meet up wif us…i got 4 years nv celebration the CNY wif u oredi…i really wish that i can celebration the CNY wif my whole family for the year coming soon…thats my wish!!!

this is the 3rd time i stay at singapore for CNY oredi and also the 3rd time cried when CNY…i still cant used it at all even staying here for 3 years oredi …i staying at home for 3 days off while CNY…suddenly,i realised that i really got no much friends at all…how i wish that i can celebration CNY wif my family…dad,mum.sis and bro,miss all of u!!!especially,my dad…dad,u had promised mum will b bek when CNY but u nv do that…u know how sad of mum???u got how many years nv go home oredi???i got how many years nv c u oredi???i really cant remember ur looks…it was very blurred in mind…dad,i really dunno wat happen to u but can u dun let your family worry bout u???at least u give a call…i very tired oredi u know???